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[Feb. 26th, 2006|07:08 pm] |
Just got home from Connecticut.
Jens amazing.
<3
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[Feb. 6th, 2006|04:04 pm] |
i think there is a big possible chance i want to go to college to be a drug counsler.
i did so much reading today.
its actually kinda interesting, heres some facts i randomly found..you should read this-
Addiction means a person has no control over whether he/she uses a drug or drinks. A person who's addicted to a drug has grown so used to the drug that he/she has to have it. Addiction can be physical, psychological, or both.
Signs of drug addiction:
*Psychological signals:
-use of drugs or alcohol as a way to forget problems or to relax
-withdrawal or keeping secrets from family and friends
-loss of interest in activities that used to be important
-problems with schoolwork, such as slipping grades or absences
-changes in friendships, such as hanging out only with friends who use drugs
-spending a lot of time figuring out how to get drugs
-stealing or selling belongings to be able to afford drugs
-failed attempts to stop taking drugs or drinking
-anxiety, anger, or depression
-mood swings
*Physical signals:
-changes in sleeping habits
-feeling shaky or sick when trying to stop
-needing to take more of the substance to get the same effect
-changes in eating habits, including weight loss or gain
*A lot of people think they can kick the problem on their own, but that doesn't work for most people. Find someone you trust to talk to.
*Remind yourself that having an addiction doesn't make you bad or weak.
*Unfortunately, overcoming addiction is not easy. Quitting drugs or drinking is probably going to be the hardest thing you've ever done.
DRUGS:
Heroin
Heroin comes from the dried milk of the opium poppy, which is also used to create the class of painkillers called narcotics - medicines like codeine and morphine. Heroin can range from a white to dark brown powder to a sticky, tar-like substance.
Street Names: horse, smack, Big H, junk
How It's Used: Heroin is injected, smoked, or inhaled (if it is pure).
Effects & Dangers:
Heroin gives you a burst of euphoric (high) feelings, especially if it's injected. This high is often followed by drowsiness, nausea, stomach cramps, and vomiting.
Users feel the need to take more heroin as soon as possible just to feel good again.
With long-term use, heroin ravages the body. It is associated with chronic constipation, dry skin, scarred veins, and breathing problems.
Users who inject heroin often have collapsed veins and put themselves at risk of getting deadly infections such as HIV, hepatitis B or C, and bacterial endocarditis (inflammation of the lining of the heart) if they share needles with other users.
LSD
LSD (which stands for lysergic acid diethylamide) is a lab-brewed hallucinogen and mood-changing chemical. LSD is odorless, colorless, and tasteless.
Street Names: acid, blotter, doses, microdots
How It's Used: LSD is licked or sucked off small squares of blotting paper. Capsules and liquid forms are swallowed. Paper squares containing acid may be decorated with cute cartoon characters or colorful designs.
Effects & Dangers:
Hallucinations occur within 30 to 90 minutes of dropping acid. People say their senses are intensified and distorted - they see colors or hear sounds with other delusions such as melting walls and a loss of any sense of time. But effects are unpredictable, depending on how much LSD is taken and the user.
Once you go on an acid trip, you can't get off until the drug is finished with you - at times up to about 12 hours or even longer!
Bad trips may cause panic attacks, confusion, depression, and frightening delusions.
Physical risks include sleeplessness, mangled speech, convulsions, increased heart rate, and coma.
Users often have flashbacks in which they feel some of the effects of LSD at a later time without having used the drug again.
Cocaine and Crack
Cocaine is a white crystalline powder made from the dried leaves of the coca plant. Crack, named for its crackle when heated, is made from cocaine. It looks like white or tan pellets.
Street Names for Cocaine: coke, snow, blow, nose candy, white, big C
Street Names for Crack: freebase, rock
How They're Used: Cocaine is inhaled through the nose or injected. Crack is smoked.
Effects & Dangers:
Cocaine is a stimulant that rocks the central nervous system, giving users a quick, intense feeling of power and energy. Snorting highs last between 15 and 30 minutes; smoking highs last between 5 and 10 minutes.
Cocaine also elevates heart rate, breathing rate, blood pressure, and body temperature.
Injecting cocaine can give you hepatitis or AIDS if you share needles with other users. Snorting can also put a hole inside the lining of your nose.
First-time users - even teens - of both cocaine and crack can stop breathing or have fatal heart attacks. Using either of these drugs even one time can kill you.
Ecstasy (MDMA)
This is a designer drug created by underground chemists. It comes in powder, tablet, or capsule form. Ecstasy is a popular club drug among teens because it is widely available at raves, dance clubs, and concerts.
Street Names: XTC, X, Adam, E, Roll
How It's Used: Ecstasy is swallowed or sometimes snorted.
Effects & Dangers:
This drug combines a hallucinogenic with a stimulant effect, making all emotions, both negative and positive, much more intense.
Users feel a tingly skin sensation and an increased heart rate.
Ecstasy can also cause dry mouth, cramps, blurred vision, chills, sweating, and nausea.
Sometimes users clench their jaws while using. They may chew on something (like a pacifier) to relieve this symptom.
Many users also experience depression, paranoia, anxiety, and confusion. There is some concern that these effects on the brain and emotion can become permanent with chronic use of ecstasy.
Ecstasy also raises the temperature of the body. This increase can sometimes cause organ damage or even death.
Okay im done.. but still its pretty insane what drugs really can do to you.
I love to help people, and i know what its like to be addicted to a drug and the shitty feeling when you have to quit. But i have a big heart and am willing to help people. |
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[Feb. 6th, 2006|03:00 pm] |
basically i love you all.
ALOT. |
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[Feb. 5th, 2006|01:35 pm] |
The dance party last night was fun.
got to see a lot of people i miss!
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[Feb. 1st, 2006|07:10 pm] |
New Years.
[ After the party ]
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[Jan. 31st, 2006|06:52 pm] |
today was bum day me and my friends just smoked up in are cute PJ's and slippers and went to friends houses and shittt.
so basically me and this dood chris are going to start acoustic sets together... hes realllly nice and funny.
were gonna start to have practice a few times a week.
hes got such a good voice!
im excited and cant wait to play shows agaaiinnn!
=]=]
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[Jan. 28th, 2006|05:29 pm] |
www.myspace.com/Nikkiandconor
me and my boyfriend made a myspace together, haha.
you should add usssss! |
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| GOING BACK TO THE OLD NIKKI |
[Jan. 27th, 2006|07:25 pm] |
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I DELETED BOTH MY MYSPACES.
I DELETED HALF THE NUMBERS IN MY CELL PHONE.
I MAY DELETE THIS.
IM DONE HANGING OUT WITH PEOPLE THAT ARE FUCKING ME UP.
IM DONE WITH DRUGS.
IM DONE WITH IMMATURE ASSHOLES.
I TOOK OUT ALL MY PIERCINGS.
TIME I GREW UP A BIT AND FOUND MY OWN PLACE AND DECENT JOB.
MY LIFE HAS BEEN TOO FUCKED UP THE PAST FEW MONTHS.
STARTING OVER IS NEVER BAD.
HERES TO NEW BEGINNINGS FUCKS. |
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[Jan. 26th, 2006|07:31 pm] |
I talk on the phone too much.
SUNGLASSES!!! :)
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[Jan. 26th, 2006|12:42 am] |
wow. worst day of my life EVER.
my friends decide to go to Rochestor NY to meet some doods..
so of course i have to tag along or theyll get pissed. after 3 and half hours of driving in the worst snow storm ever we finally get to this kids house. WE STAYED THERE FOR 30 MINUTES. POINTLESS DRIVE. we almost got hit my like 50 trucks. there were all these cars in the ditch and cars flipped n shit. it was so scary. me and my friends were practically crying we wanted to just get home so bad.
TO TOP EVERYTHING OFF IM REALLY SICK!
Then my boyfriend and i argue the whole fuckin night.
=[
Then i delete both of my myspace... that i had over 4000 friends and 6000 comments on. Myspace pissed me off.
IM IN THE WORST BEYOND WORST MOOD EVER RIGHT NOW. |
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[Jan. 24th, 2006|07:16 pm] |
WHATS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
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[Jan. 23rd, 2006|07:15 pm] |
Its really hard for me to open up to people.
i cant say a lot of stuff openly.
i wish i could at times.
im very easy to talk to but i dont like showing my feelings.
i dont like crying in front of people and when im angry id rather be by myself and not talk about it.
but i figured since this is a "journal" and i cant talk about my feelings, id just write them on here.
the past few years for me have been really hard.
my parents getting divorced and my mom and i moving around like crazy.
new apartments and houses every other mounth, new school every few weeks. my dog ran away and my brother turned into a complete asshole. now living with just my father and brother its so rough. all i do is cook and clean. im trying my hardest for a job, but no luck. i had to drop out of school because of my health issues and family problems. Now im in need of getting my G.E.D. How did my life go from amazing family and living like a princess to living like shit? sometimes i feel alone. i hate that. but sometimes i also want to be alone just so i can think to myself about stuff. I use to be balimic, Until i realized how dumb that was. my mom starved herself for awhile and ended up in the hospital. my mom now is somewhere in Florida and left me for some asshole boyfriend. Shes not with him anymore but i havent spoken to her in mounths.. she didnt even call me on christmas. My grandfather passed away 3 days before christmas from liver problems. unfortuanly i was close with him so it was a terrifying loss. My grandfathers funeral was the first funeral ive ever been to seeing he was the first person in my family while i was alive that has passed away. ive been thinking about death a lot lately. its scares me so much. i cant sleep when i think about it. my biggest fear in life right now is getting more sick and dieing. i just hope i can live a healthy and happy life for now and everything works out for me. im so happy i have a boy in my life right now to put a smile on my face every night before i go to bed. I tell him everything. hes the only one i feel comfortable with. Im glad i have good friends too, there always sure to be there for me. I duno what id do if i lost my boyfriend or my best friends. well i have no more time to write. maybe ill add more later.. =/ |
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[Jan. 22nd, 2006|12:07 am] |
awe
today was so much fun
the show was really fun!!
the girls and i had a blast before and after.
we sang like every radio song that came one haha.
we almost got in like 10 car accidents though.
one was reallly bad. i was so fuckin scared.
luckily nothing happend though.
my friends ARE SO FUCKING AMAZING. |
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[Jan. 21st, 2006|03:40 pm] |
Happy Anniversary to me and my amazing boyfriend ♥
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[Jan. 18th, 2006|02:39 pm] |
Im sick!
i hate colds.
i feel like crap.
and to top it off my friends keep skipping school and coming here really early in the morning and waking me up.
eeep.
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[Jan. 15th, 2006|11:48 pm] |
i got chubby cheeks =]
creep
Pigtails =D
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| FOOD |
[Jan. 13th, 2006|08:49 pm] |
what are healthy but good foods to eat????
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[Jan. 12th, 2006|02:52 am] |
Well today was pretty gay.
i handed in all the appliactions i filled out and then Tawnya and i decided to beat the shit out of each other in my bed and take pictures of us making super lame face expressions. wow i love her.
i ate the worst salade from mCdonalds ever.
my brother made me walk to the store to get his stoned fat ass food.
and then my boyfriend was gay and like died on the phone.
k goodnight ♥ |
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[Jan. 10th, 2006|06:08 pm] |
sometimes my friends take pictures of me when im dancing all fuckedup.
assholes.
Oh and conor.. i was definitly wearing cowboy boots in this picture =] |
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